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  THE QUIET ONE

  J A BAKER

  To Dawn. For always being there. Friendships don’t come much stronger or longer than ours.

  Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness.

  Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.

  AUGUST WILSON

  CONTENTS

  North Yorkshire Live – Breaking News

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  More from J. A. Baker

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Also by J A Baker

  The Murder List

  About Boldwood Books

  NORTH YORKSHIRE LIVE – BREAKING NEWS

  24 MAY 2019

  A school in North Yorkshire is currently reported to be under lockdown due to a violent crime taking place within the school grounds.

  Parents anxious about the safety and welfare of their children have gathered outside the gates of Westland Academy. One parent is reported to have said, ‘We saw the police officers go in, but they haven’t come out yet. It’s all very worrying, especially since we’ve heard nothing about our kids and how they’re doing.’

  North Yorkshire Live has requested an update but the school and the police have declined to comment on an ongoing operation stating they will release any relevant information in due course.

  This story will be updated as soon as more information becomes available.

  PROLOGUE

  She needs to get out. She cannot remain here all day, cooped up in this place, trapped and frightened while the sun begins its inevitable sluggish descent over the horizon, while the darkness sets in and shadows dance and stretch over her; eerie silhouettes reminding her of where she is and how long this has lasted. She has to get out.

  A feeling of disquiet blooms under her skin, numbing her senses, dulling her reactions. She is groggy. Weak and unsteady. Soon, she will pull herself round, try to reason with this person before they do something dreadful to her, something unthinkable. Something final.

  She shivers and closes off those thoughts, shifting about to get comfortable, her clothing twisting and pulling. Catching underneath her. The ground is cold, hard, an unyielding surface under her soft flesh. She shuffles this way and that, tries to reposition herself, hoping to alleviate the ache that throbs and pulses in the lower half of her body, pinballing up and down her spine.

  It’s difficult to do anything, to move about or attempt to free herself. Her hands are tied behind her back, her feet held together with duct tape. It’s a crude but effective method of containment. She hopes soon, to be able to wriggle free from it, but it is slowing her down, increasing her clumsiness. Hindering her dexterity. Straightening her back, she manages to find a more comfortable spot, letting out a low sigh as she stretches her legs. It gives her only a small amount of relief. The pain is still present, nagging at her. Reminding her of where she is.

  And who put her here.

  That is something she simply cannot comprehend, how it has all come to this. How she didn’t see it before now.

  She listens to the voices outside, to the frantic shouts, the cries of terror in the distance, the nearby whispers that are desperate. Urgent. Her ears are attuned to the authoritative tone of the negotiator, their pleas for the door to be opened, for the weapon to be surrendered, for her to be released unharmed.

  Time has lost all meaning. How long has she been here? Minutes? Hours? At some point, she blacked out, coming to as her feet were being bound together. She was too disorientated to do anything, too confused to escape or fight back. Fog had descended on her brain, muddying her thoughts, blotting out all logic. But now she is awake. Now she is beginning to think straight. She can remember what happened, what took place prior to her being trapped in here, and wishes she couldn’t. The memory punches its way into her brain, lodging in her consciousness, forcing her to relive it. Everything is now horribly clear in her mind.

  And with that clarity comes terror. Terror and fear that slither their way under her skin, clogging up her veins, turning her innards to liquid. Her heart begins to pound, a relentless thump against her ribcage. A vice tightens around her skull. She tries to slow her breathing, to take control of her senses.

  A noise is close by. Too close. She can feel the heat from her captor. The air is thick with it. She can smell their rancid odour, hear the low rustle of their movements. She can detect their deteriorating mood: threatening, unpredictable, hellbent on some sort of warped revenge.

  Thoughts of their capabilities, their need for vengeance, knots her insides. She’s fully awake now, roused from her brain fog. Aware of every sound, every movement. Her thoughts turn to escaping. To getting out of here unharmed.

  She begins to hyperventilate, her breath escaping in tiny gasps. She is sure she is going to faint. Panic sets in. She has to slow everything down before she comes apart, before she unravels completely.

  She blinks behind the blindfold, eyelids fluttering against the obstruction. The darkness behind it is complete. No gag. She is free to speak but can’t. The words refuse to come. She is mute, too frightened to breathe properly. Too terrified to scream for help. Her windpipe has shrunk, her lungs like deflated balloons. She is useless, unable to do anything except focus on how frightened she is and how she ended up here. Why she ended up here.

  She needs to find her voice, to reason with her kidnapper. She knows them well enough. Or thought she did. Today’s event has stripped her of everything she thought she knew and held dear. About herself and those around her. Her knowledge and trust of others has been ground underfoot. Turned to dust. Humanity and hope have deserted her, making her question everything she takes for granted: friendship, happiness. Trust. They have all gone. Disappeared into the ether.

  ‘Please,’ she says quietly, her voice abruptly finding its way out, ‘let me go and we can pretend none of this ever happened.’ She means it. She is not about to make false promises or utter hollow phrases to gain her freedom. To be allowed to leave, she will turn a blind eye, forget everything. She would do her damnedest to put it behind her and continue with her life, to be the best that she can be. She has learned many tough lessons of late and that is one of them. Always be your best self. Her history cannot be undone but the future is something that can be moulded to recompense for past sins.

  The breathing is closer now, harsh and rasping, gathering in strength and momentum. She can smell the reek of anger, the years of bitterness that have accumulated in her captor’s pores. It wafts through the stuffy air, settling under her nose. She holds her breath, trying to stop the stench that is making her retch. She waits for a response, the sound of her thrashing heart, her own blood as it pumps around her veins, crunching and echoing in her ears.

  ‘Please,’ she says again, softly this time, her fear and desperation held bare. ‘Please.’

  Nothing. She waits, the atmosphere thick with anticipation, with expectation, with dread.

  Then a deep grunt, followed by the rustle of fabric as they move even closer. Her heart speeds up, expands and bounces in her chest until she is dizzy and hot, close to passing out.

  ‘Just let me go and everything can go back to how it was. I won’t let anybody hurt you or blame you for this, I promise.’ Her voice is a whisper, laced with desperation.

  She suppresses a shriek as the person lunges forward. She thinks of that cold sharp blade, wondering if it still being held to her throat. She whispers again, her voice hoarse, ‘Please, please, let’s—’

  ‘Shut up! Shut up or I swear to God, I will slit your throat and smile while I do it.’

  1

  1999

  A small figure sits on the riverbank, slumped, defeated. Her heart thumps, her mouth is dry with fear, with an all-encompassing exhaustion. She’s alone at last. They are far behind her. Thank God. She has managed to shake them off, to sneak deep into the undergrowth and hide herself like a wanted person, a fugitive. Somebody who doesn’t belong.

  Despite her escape, every crackle in the woods, every snap of a twig, every whisper of wind that rustles through the treetops causes her spine to stiffen and her scalp to prickle. The rush of the water pounds in her ears, the strength of the current making her woozy as she studies it through a blur of tears.

  This used to be her safe place, down here by the water: the special space she visited to get away from it all. They followed her into the tall shrubbery, shouting her name, dragging sticks through the long grass and the gnarled branches, doing their bes
t to keep up with her, issuing threats, hunting her down like a wild animal, like a pack of salivating dogs going in for the kill, but she knows this area better than anyone and after a few twists and turns, they gave up. But they know now where she goes to which means her safe place is no longer safe. She has nowhere else to hide, nowhere to escape. Other areas are too far away or too exposed. Open fields, play parks and a village green provide no cover for her. She’ll be a target for their threats and bullying. A sitting duck waiting to be shot at.

  Her hands shake as she wipes at her face, clearing away the snot and tears with the tattered sleeve of her threadbare sweater. They despise her. She’d like to say she has no idea why they hate her so much but that would be a complete lie. She knows only too well why they loathe her and why they bully and goad her relentlessly. She’s astute enough to realise it. A sharp thinker according to her teachers. She has a fast brain but an unattractive face. Her skin is grubby, her clothes old and unfashionable. She doesn’t fit into their neat little world. And that is the problem. She’s different. And people don’t like different. They rail against those who don’t conform to their ideals. They mock people who don’t keep up with the latest fashion. They despise those who don’t paint their nails or wear the flawless make-up that they sport with such breath-taking confidence, it makes her dizzy with envy.

  It’s how the human brain works. She read about it once in a psychology magazine. Different people pose a threat to the masses. They frighten everyone around them with their strange appearances and unconventional mannerisms. Somebody is always at the bottom of the pecking order. She is that person. No running with the pack, no fitting in with her peers. Just fear and isolation. And coming from a poverty-stricken family with a drunken, rage-filled father, she is powerless to change it.

  She looks down at her hands, at her stubby fingernails caked with mud, at her filthy ill-fitting clothes. More tears well up. She can’t remember the last time her mother loaded the washing machine. It’s not allowed. The noise rouses her dad. Makes him edgy and unpredictable. So she remains dirty, her uniform grimy, her coat grey and worn.

  She tries to stay clean, to be like the other girls at school. Last week, she attempted to run a bath, tried to do something about her grubby appearance, but her father pulled out the plug before the tub was even half full.

  His face had loomed close to hers, his skin pasty, an atlas of red, broken veins snaking across the whites of his bulging eyes. His voice was a roar. ‘What do you think I am?’ he had screamed at her, his tombstone teeth dripping with saliva, ‘a fucking millionaire?’ He had grabbed a fistful of her hair, rammed her head into the side of the sink and left her slumped on the bathroom floor, stars bursting behind her eyes and pain blinding her. Bathing is now forbidden. Bathing is something she will do when she carves out another life for herself far away from here.

  She shuffles closer to the river, careful not to lean too far over the edge. She’s not frightened of the water, not afraid of its power. She’s in awe of it, mindful of its dark ferocity and the damage it could cause if she let it. It commands respect. She thinks about it often: about the harm it could do to her. Or the hurt it could stop. Perspective is important when it comes to considering the outcome. She’s dreamed before now, of diving right in there and letting it sweep her away, letting the water drag her under until nothing else matters. No more fear, no more of anything. Just eternal darkness. An end to the misery. But then the moment passes, the sun appears, banishing the dark thoughts, pushing them away and she can once again see the light.

  Recent rains have increased the speed of the current and caused a pulsing deep swell. She watches, mesmerised, held captive by the river’s swirling eddies. She dips her fingers into the gushing river, letting them hang there in the icy water until her skin is numb, until pain shoots up her arms, whistling over her shoulders and into her neck.

  She removes her hands, chalk white with cold, sits back on the ground, rubbing her palms against the long silken strands of grass until they’re dry. Sometimes she enjoys punishing herself, seeing how far she can go before her nerve endings shriek at her to stop. It gives her a taste of how it could be, that alternative ending when her lungs fill with water and she gasps her last. It’s what keeps her going: the thought of the cold and the pain and an eternity of nothingness.

  Staring at her nails she is overcome by a wave of revulsion. They are the hands of a manual worker – dry, cracked, dirty. Her nails are ragged and bitten, chewed down to the quick. She dips her head, visualising the girls at school, their golden tresses and flawless skin, musing over how they conduct themselves, gliding across the playground with swanlike elegance. She isn’t like that. She never will be. She is the antithesis of glamour and budding sophistication. That’s why they hate her. That’s why she hates herself.

  One day, she’ll get out of this place, away from this village with its tight, unforgiving mentality and she’ll show them how she can really be. She will transform into something better, something prettier and more conventional. She isn’t prepared to spend the rest of her life at the bottom. She has dreams and aspirations just like those pretty girls at school. Happiness should be available for all. But for now, she has to find a way of enduring it. She has to find a way of putting up with the beatings and surviving the hostile environment in which she has found herself, both at school and at home.

  Standing up, she heads back. Back to her cramped, dusty house with its reek of unwashed clothes. Back to the choking trail of cigarette smoke that lingers in the air turning the walls a sickly shade of yellow.

  Once there, she will make herself scarce. She will hide out in her bedroom, away from the noise and the chaos. Another survival technique she has mastered. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. It all depends on how much he has had to drink or whether or not the wind is blowing in a westerly direction and whether it’s a Saturday or a Tuesday or a Monday. The rules are, there are no rules.

  One day, they will all realise. One day, all these people who have made her life a misery will wake up and it will dawn on them what they have done. How they have treated her. All the damage. All the hurt she has endured. For now though, she has to grit her teeth, ignore it, bear the pressure of their cruelty. She will be the best she can be, given the circumstances. She will tolerate it all: the name calling, the sarcastic smirks, even the violence. But one day, it will change. She knows it. She can feel it somewhere deep inside her gut.

  She crosses the field, avoiding the park where the noise of youngsters playing in the distance causes her skin to prickle and grow hot with dread. It’s not them, her aggressors, but even so. Her senses are raw, acutely attuned to every single sound. She’s not about to take any chances. The park is exposed. She cannot risk being seen. Lying low, disappearing into the background is how she lives her life. This is who she is.

  Across the expanse of green stands her house – a tiny, terraced property, conspicuous by its neglect. Neighbouring homes with their gleaming white window frames and perfectly pleated curtains only accentuate how rundown and unloved her home is, how grimy and unkempt it looks, even from a distance.

  She opens the door and steps into the hallway and her chest compresses as she hears her father bellowing in the kitchen. She stops and listens, preparing herself. He’s complaining that his meal is late and is shouting her name over and over. Where is his daughter? Where the fuck has she taken herself off to this time? She should be here, giving a hand to prepare his food, helping out around the house, not sneaking off into the woods on her own.